one sided

One sided love? He says he doesn't care but he does. He looks at me and the same time he doesn't see me. He holds me close, but lets me go. So what is it? Is this all one sided? Sure, you care but you don't care enough, yeah you like me but not enough, you look at me, but not like i look at you. You hold me but not tight or close enough. You complicate my life and you make it better again. What is all this bs? Are we really this messed up?

The things you do and say that make my heart skip a beat

I know sometimes, we fight over the smallest things. We get on each other's nerves, and we fuss about all the details in life. But then we have our times when all we want to do is talk about our day, our friends, life, and us(if there is even an "us") I don't care right now though, we are young, reckless and we are learning the art of love. You say the best things a girl wants to hear, and my heart skips a beat. You make me mad but deep down my heart thumps. Letting me know that I would not feel this way if I didn't love you. You say the funniest things and I laugh my eyes out. You make me cry and my heart is saddened and then you wave your white flag again, and life gets better. I don't care if we are like this, complicated, opposites, annoying, or whatever it is. I want this. Just as long as you never stop making my heart pound because honey you are the only person that makes it beat faster and slower at the same time<3

Going the Distance

If I could fall into the sky, would you think time would pass me by, cuz you know I'd walk a thousand miles..tonight
Going the distance? What does it mean? How far can one go to reach the person they love?  You go to all the places that you two spent your day at hoping to run into him or her. You go to places that he or she goes to most of the time. You sit and wait paitenty until they walk through the door. You stare at the moon knowing that they are under the same night sky as you. and no matter where the two of you are, you will always be under the same moon that shines everynight, cuz that's the only thing you have close to that person. You don't stop until you see them. That's going the distance. *Life as we know it*

Girl's journal Entry

Dear Journal,
 As we talked about the past, everything came back. That old feeling of sparks.. It's silly but true. He may not feel the same but I still do. Our past was something unforgetable. We sat there talking for an hour but it felt like a minute. I didn't think he would remeber all our past conversations, but he did. "Do you remeber that time when you said you would get me chinese food?"
Him: "Oh no, it wasn't for chinese food, it was for sushi, how can you forget, you love sushi more than chinese food" He was right about that:) My heart was pulling at strings as he told me everything he remembered. It was just like the good times. When everything was okay, and we never had to fight.

   But talking to him was somewhat saddening. To know that I may never see him again, that the world is filled with billions of people. There's a high chance that in my lifetime I will never run into him again.   The only thing i regret is not telling him how muh he meant to me. I wish I did, but now it mght be too late.